I remember pastor once said that it is unfair for us to accuse backsliders of not loving God. Because there was a point in time when they absolutely gave their all to love him and to serve him. It is just that right now they have to focus their time and energy elsewhere - at least for a little while.
I kinda feel like I need the people around me to understand that about me now. It is not that I don’t love God, or my friends or my cause anymore… I just have other areas in my life I need to focus on right now… at least for a little while /: